Wondering if destiny ever wanted to kick out my ambitions and lead the path i must stay within!.Feeling nostalgic the moment i'm into a place where i won't belong to the happiest of surroundings anymore and the opulence not about wealth but about happiness i ache for at times seems to rememorate the magnificient love i ever had by my loved ones.Even when we know nothing lasts forever we still give it a try because something is always better than nothing and thy comes a hope i wanted.It later turned to be my medicine for the loneliness fever.I knew i won't stay with you forever but now i cherish whatever that came along my path because i see a better me full of hopes and ambitions as if i had a relic directing me where i should turn first.Stepping into the first day of my college life i now remember the cries i made just because sending someone to let go of the present taking a refreshing start i will never have him along the paths of glory because he is far wanting me to learn a better world.Even today you wish me the best of luck everytime you see that i'm not very much capable of the thing i do.You just give it a try because you never wanted to let me down!.At times i wonder why you stress yourself with the life of ours just to hear from you that it is for our prosperousness.The way you care for the poor,the way you set things right,the way you handle the unexpected,the way you love us more than anyone else....i'm just awestruck!.I wonder if i would ever find a better love dad:)
Entering into class rooms,teacher asking you names,patting you when you feel lost,invigorate when you needed!.I promise! you would never run away when you find that it differs nothing much compared to the past.I never made a try to cherish the present until i knew myself that i was committing a sin of not making a friendship and letting go of the defunct!.I was the only soul learning all nights just to see the happiness as a token of the life they gave me!.I could never think of a strategy better than academics to pay for your love.It started with my birthday that i started gaining more friends(Good things are expected on an auspicious day :P).
Wanted to never let go the life i live only once,never wanted to let my parents down,never wanted to lose the friends who'll be mine forever,never wanted to lose the fun i will miss if i never encounter with.Then comes the day i meet the best teacher i ever thought sparkling my mind with the happiness wishing me to be the happiest.Having done my first semester,with the results came expectations that continues until today-for it is something i never wanted to do for myself but wishing for the happiness of the ones i love.There was a time when someone who calls out me topper i dissent myself just because it is something i never wanted to be laughed at,now even when it's not the end i laugh at my pasts.Seems funnier how i never let things be in the funniest way.Thy came an aspiration to do something best than the better.Even when i shivered the most before i gave a speech about the ambitions of my life i just thought i never wanted to let the fortuity go just because i'm shivering to make a public speech.
Even when i have the happiest of times i remorse for the friendship i had.Though she is not the one i longed to have a friendship with,letting her go just because of me made me culpable because i'm not the wrong doer and i never have a reason to apologize,the greatest mistake i ever did is not realizing who would beat behind my back.I regret not for the mistake that made you depart from hostel but the guilt you never understood me beyond your misunderstandings and you never gave me a chance to speak my heart that i care for you even now!.I will never make a friendship again with the same person not that i'm egoistic about who talks first but because i never wanted someone who once said i'm guilty when others proved i'm not!.And the cause you caused still hurts!.Goodbye!
When there is passing clouds there are memories to be registered in every cloud i passby.I'm not at the best place but i'm contented with what i have and cherish those who stay by my side.At times when i'm not really helpful i have an apology to make because it was not purposeful.Some don't understand and i don't care either because i know only few people care and others are just curious when something unexpected happens.
I'm glad at being called the changed because i now realize how foolish i had been in the past being sensitive about every moves i take.I miss someone the most at this moment i knew you could never return back but i missed the chance of letting you know how much i loved you.You always wished me happy days while i can only shed a tear when i remember those painful nights.You made our hearts sparkle.Here is a note i wanted to tell "I knew i'm the disobedient granddaughter but you might never have enjoyed the crisps in life without me being chased.I love you grandma".
I miss hearing the advises i get from you mom when i'm down but still i'm happier that she is happy about the personification of my new beginning.To those who cherish my friendship-I'm happier that you are in my life too:)
Sweet night:)
