Wednesday, October 30, 2013

When i first saw you !

When god created the world and all the majestic things in it, when he streaked the heavens with radiant color and the earth with grand mountains and awe-inspiring canyons, when he painted the plains with waving grasses and erected noble forests of towering trees, he outdid it all by creating friends.I felt the sense of awe towards him when i was much happier than that hard olden days!

It was almost two months since i turned back into something incredible,an unusual feeling as if i had nausea that moment.I thought none would be willing to go with medicine and so it would be an easier task to get to the top.Later i realized that i was wrong.My choice for the career that i wanted to pursue was clear.I did not try for any other option.so my first aim was to be focussed with my life deciding two long years.But rather being successful with my career i found myself that i was more comfortable with new friends.But it was too late when i realized they would no more be with me forever!

When i entered for my first day classes,i thought everything was normal and thought the same girl who troubles me all time is going to sit by my side for the next two years!I happened to hear a voice calling me and when i looked back i saw the girl and realized that she was the topper of the class.It was funny when she told that her mom had asked to sit with me.But i didn't realize then that we would become best friends forever!Being the topper she always had encouragements filled with expectations.Sometimes i felt like having a bet with her and trying my best to top the class.I was awaiting for the list to be read in prayer about that month's toppers because i had come second!But she didn't let it go on.Sometimes i feel like running away but she wouldn't let me go away!At times i found herself engaged with new friends of hers and letting me down.But then i realized i have so much friends to cherish with.She always cared if i had understood the lessons well and would clear up with the texts i was not thorough with.But it was too long when i realized that she had more toppers to discuss better with and later she never bothered to hear me if i had doubts.Still she continued to be my best friend.I thought i would never disturb her with her friends and was too careful in not hurting her feelings and was always there whenever she needed me.

Being stuffed with boring lessons i always waited for something that would keep me happier all time and there came QUEST 2011.It was then i had so much friends to call for when i was down.It was those days that i had bunked for the first time in my schooling.I still can't make out what made me crazy in bunking classes inspite of me participating only in english essay writing which was on the spot.That plot made me recognise everyone's talents.That was the place i happened to see the one who cared for someone special she thought was.But that didn't last long!I felt relationships end but they don't end your life.But people do often spend more time finding out the broken relationships that is never going to make up again unless mistakes are forgiven.

I thought i should never make that mistake of getting so close with someone and hurt myself .So i thought i should engage myself with more stage performances that came to me.I happened to realize later about the day i sang on stage.It was the situation that forced the teacher to think that i'm the best singer.And that sounded well.None knew that i was the one who sang on stage but when they knew i was filled with wishes.It was then i had decided never to turn back to stage and engage myself in trouble.

It was almost november when we were given the opportunity to partcipate in science national congress.I thought i must learn something new but my leader didn't let me do that.He was the only person i always hated but remembered the tough days of my 8 th grade fighting who would top the class between us.11 th remained to hold the most unexpected days of having bunked the classes for no reason.The only reason we had was we were doing the project and it went in vain that we are coping to do the best of all.But no one knew that it was all fake for the school really thought we were busy working.It was late when we realized that the competition was so important that would bring us fame if we had achieved.Though we didn't take it serious we were the one who had come with new ideas and the supervisors appreciated us but was blamed of not giving them a working model.Though our creation seemed to have some logic it made them feel that it was not that realistic.Thank god we were not selected for we had our board exams very soon and that our practicals were about to start.

During last three months of our 11 th grade i felt more uncomfortable with my class and felt that we had got so much rumours that it was hard to regret,for we had gone to our extreme!It was those few days i found many having pairs and enjoying life while we felt sorry and were blamed because of them.When they tried to move away from each other they hardly realized that they had already got so close that it was difficult to give away with emotions.But later they realized that it was what life is all about,the transformations we meet!

When it was finally the end they had made up minds not to concentrate on anything but studies.It was the place that made many realize the fake relationships they had had.They had already found who their real friends were and was careful in not getting close again with them.We now were so keen on concentrating on our studies and it all happened at once that we started gaining the competitiveness we once had.Having gained the spirit of learning,we also faced problems regarding the question papers that were leaked for our district model exams and teachers were upset because they never expected this act from one of the toppers classes.We never wanted to do this but it was the grading systems that forced us do this.We neither felt sorry nor happy for this was not our public exams!

Inspite of we not doing so well in our exams we expected our results for we thought it was like talent exams not having prepared anything that year and appearing as we were forced to!We had already started with our 12 th classes while others had holidays.But we had so much expectations with our 12 th grade for we made sure that we had no more punishments because of them again.But that didn't last long!It was august when we were blamed again because of them.I still wonder what is up to innocent faces of us getting into trouble for what we really had done nothing!

But that didn't bother us because we enjoyed classes being cut.I happened to have some good friends which was almost 10 and now it is just 3.I wonder how people change with time!I then realized that life is nothing if lessons are not taught and you need all those lessons if you wanted to be a hero in the strife!We made so well with our 12 th grade in the beginning and later we felt tough with concepts as was the going.Maths volume 2 haunted us.We never wanted english classes because we discussed almost everything except the concepts.And no comments about other subjects!

The public exams are over and now i feel like having a reverse button for i never expected question papers would be more talented than we are. We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams!I am now gaining my friends back and knew not if they were so much interested in studies during the past or if they realize who i'am only now!Someday many years from now we'll be exchanging our tales from now and laughing as the memories flow and when that distant day arrives i know it will be understood that friendship is the key to live and we were friends and it was good.I wish not to remember the past but to cherish the memories we had-once upon a time!

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

LIFE

Living among uncertainities
Dying as no longer worth being...
even when we absent ourselves from earth-we
always have a mystery to unfold-and
a bond wishing to never let go...
It never means my love for them ends here-it
is that they wanted to go ahead traversing the life
leaving me behind..
learning few phases of life..
wishing to never let the darkness encircle-though
i know tomorrow never comes!

                                               -k.jeyapriya

Sunday, October 27, 2013

இந்த நாள் இனிய நாளாவது மனிதனின் அவா!
வலிகளை மறைக்கிறது கண்ணீர்
உண்மைகளை பேச வைக்கிறது அன்பு
கருணை என்னும் தாரகம் இல்லையே நம்மில் ...
காலத்தால் அழிந்த போதிலும்
வலிகளால் இறந்துபோனது நெஞ்சம் ...
வலிகளை மறைக்க புன்னகை தேவையில்லை
நேயம் என்னும் நேசமே போதும்!

                                                 -K.Jeyapriya
உன்னை நினைக்கையில் காயம் ஆறிப்போனது
வலிகளை ஆர்ச்செய்ய வந்த தேவதையாய் உன்னை பார்கிறேன்
கனவுகளுக்கிடையில் நிஜமானது நம் நட்பு
இந்த தருணத்தில் புன்னகைக்கிறேன்-உன்னை எண்ணியபடியே 
நீ என் இனியவை என்று :)

                                                  -க.ஜெயப்ரியா 

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Tomorrow might never be!

This day is not what i expected
reminiscence haunts me..
wanting a day to hold so dear
for you are far beyond the reach..
wish you share my pain-while
i share your happiness-for
you only know when i smile-that
i hide back my tears
just to make you cheerful..
It seems like i'm having a revolution around..
just a premonition-that
you'll be lost in future..
while i'm busy searching for you
a no man says he could never be mine-for
he had found someone dear
leaving me count my tears..
just wishing to live life the fullest-for
i'm said tomorrow might never be..!

                  -K.Jeyapriya

You'll be the pearl i wanted to catch!

This is just another day
for the cloud to passby
This'll be the promise i make-that
no bound'll be around us.
You'll be the finest drop i ever had
seeing a pearl spark my own..
wishing you had a life of your own.
Don't know how long you'll be
but i'll never find the another you!
Hearing your voice i come to reality-that
now i'm afraid to go to my dreams-for
i could never encounter when i'm back...
i'll never let you go!
miss being far...
you'll be the best love i ever had..
even when i know nothing lasts forever
You'll be the pearl i wanted to catch....

                                   -K.Jeyapriya

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